The long absence of blog posts recently was due to the fact that I was in Langkawi. Decided to head there as a couple of Mel's friends came back to for a while, and one has not been to Langkawi before. Plus we thought we'd benefit from getting away. In the end, it was a pretty decent trip for me, though maybe for others it wasn't as pleasant.


In a sense, it was a more.. fun trip, compared to the last time. Yeah, it was marred a little by some thinking that shouldn't have come up or whatnot, but it wasn't as um, bad, for want of a better word, compared to the last time I went there.

Fasting was not really an issue, as I didn't really find it difficult to fast and enjoy myself there. Almost effortless, though I did avoid participating in anything that might've made me more tired than I'd have deemed necessary. So most of the trip was spent reading and at the beach. I had my chance to relax, to have some quiet time, to enjoy myself in that peaceful sense.


I also managed to clear my head, to clarify a few things, and for once I didn't really spill out problems, instead I listened to people. Quite some feat, I guess, since I'm usually the problematic one. That's not to say I didn't have problems, since I was feeling a little choked up on the first night, and I was pretty angry at myself on the last night. But all in all, I really think I fared better than I thought I would.

I didn't really get to spend as much time as I would've liked with some people, though I accept the reasons why. It's not always that you have time to spend with some friends, so I let that pass. Would've been selfish of me, as well. So yeah.


I learnt some things that I guess I should've known before, but maybe I was too blind to see, or too stubborn to accept. Oh, and on the last night, I saw the most stars I've ever seen in my sort-lived 20 years of life. It really left me going "Wow!", to the extent that I actually shouted "Look up! F**king look up at that!" when I first saw them.


I didn't feel as much pain as I thought I would, which I'm very grateful of. I didn't let emotions really take hold of me, I didn't do a lot of things that would've made the trip a sour experience for me. So all in all, I was on pretty decent behaviour (that's what I feel) throughout the trip, and I didn't not enjoy it. One thing though, I felt that it was a very short trip this time. Like, very. But hey. I've got a few more opportunities to make up for it. God willing.


And just now, I helped you out with your work, and I felt happy that I could, though maybe you found my um, analness towards some of the grammar and whatnot a bit suffocating. But that's just me. You were doing good, and it looks like you'll do pretty damn fine in this. And that's what I'd like to believe.

So you make me proud, okay? Make my eyes fill with tears of joy when one day, in the future, I see you.


And I'll go, "Damn. That's my girl."


:)