Tuesday, August 26, 2008

We're Both Better Than This, It's Not Worth Being Down

It takes some silence to make sound,
And it takes a loss before you found it.

Life Is Wonderful - Jason Mraz

Woke up with raindrops splashing on my face. Window was open, wind was blowing hard. Figures. Wanted to stay up and watch a football match. Managed to stay awake till about 1 a.m.. Then I thought, okay, a short nap will help, so I set my alarm to go off at 2.55 a.m., and I slept. And unfortunately I slept through the alarm-ringing, right up to dawn, when my mum woke me up. Then I went upstairs to continue my slumber. And woke up again to get splashed in the face. Hahaha.

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Holy smokes! It's Batman!

I wonder what it's like to be a toy. To have no real life (if at all) of your own, to succumb to the whims and wants of the owner. To be posed on the edge of a table while said owner tries miserably to take a decent photo and not focus on life. To have only one purpose in life, that is to please / satisfy / amuse (in more ways than one, I assume) the person that bought you. To not worry about things, to just stand there and look pretty (or in this case, um.. macho?). Life would be simpler, in a sense, kan?

But then, when one is a toy, one cannot feel the joys of life (oh, do pray tell what that might be, says the pessimistic one). When one's a toy, one cannot, for example, fall down so bad one might just want to give up trying to stand, yet does not have the willpower to do so. Or have one's thoughts all in a mess and can't make head nor tail regarding things.

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Drop of water. Really pointless photograph, to be honest. Just like this post.

This was a post in the making, earlier today, and since I didn't have the time nor energy nor wit nor strength nor interest in continuing what I started back then, then, now I'm continuing on with it. Oh did that make sense or what? Teehee.

So yeah, there's this tag that I did, and I did it three times, at three different times, with three different mindsets. So... Here's the tag, but with three different variations of answers (with regards to some, not all, questions)

Tagged by: Melissa Chen

1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace and questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

2.Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

(Part One)

1. Are you allowed to have a bf/gf?
Girlfriend.

2. Describe yourself in one word.
a - Ambiguous.
b - Sarcastic.
c - Reliable.

3. Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
Someone I love

4. Have you ever loved someone before but never had the courage to tell him/her?
No.

5. Does it feel good to love?
a - Depends. It can get horrible.
b - No.
c - Yes.

6. What do you like to eat?
a - Malaysian food.
b - Whatever that's edible.
c - Food

7. What’s the last thing you’ll do before you die?
a - Say goodbye.
b - Make someone who cares / I care about cry.
c - Take a picture. Or two.

8. Was there ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
No.

9. What can you say about playboys/ playgirls?
a - What can I say? Without rubbish, loads of people would be out of jobs.
b - I couldn't care less.
c - Glad I'm not one.

10. Are you still a virgin?
Yes.

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Look at the pretty lights! Oooooooo...

(Part Two)


1. Best place to cry?
a - In the presence of someone who cares.
b - In private.
c - With a friend / family.

2. Who's the person who stands on top of your heart?
a - Well, you know who you are, at the moment.
b - For now, it's not that hard to guess, is it?
c - There's more than one, and they're all equally (though not literally) on top of my heart.

3. Tell us your dream last night?
Didn't dream.

4. Ever hated someone so bad?
a - No, regretfully.
b - I want to, but I don't think I have / can.
c - No.

5. The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?
a - Don't want to remember it if I've ever heard it.
b - I was L....
c - Nanananana

6. The last person you had a beer with?
Don't drink.

7. The last person you went to the movies with?
Family.

8. The last person you talked on the cell phone with?
Lisa

9. The last person you hugged?
Mel

10. The last person who made you cry?
Mmm..

11. In the last week have you kissed someone?
No.

12. Danced crazy?
Can't / Don't dance.

13. Think of the last time you were angry, why were you angry?
a - Yesterday, cold, ice-cold.
b - Today, just now, frustrated.
c - Today, dinner, something about me going out a lot.

14. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
a - I'd wish I was smarter. Then I wouldn't have made stupid mistakes.
b - I'd wish no one would have to go through what I do.
c - Wish I would be a successful sports photographer.

15. If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
a - France.
b - England.
c - England.

16. Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
Maybe. No.

17. Are you old fashioned?
a - Some aspects.
b - Sometimes.
c - Yes, specially in the music department.

18. What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
a - That I do not love them back. Bet the feeling's horrible. ;)
b - That I do not love them back.
c - That I do not love them back.

19. What things would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
a - Love? Life? Or do those two go hand-in-hand?
b - A friend.
c - Trust. Where'd I be if I couldn't trust anyone?

20. Five facts about me:
a - Ambiguous, sarcastic, smart, shy, stupid
b - Reliable, witty, has a knack for photographs, friendly, helpful
c - Helpful, dark, thin, thinks too much, doesn't do enough.

21. Seven songs in my head now:

a - Details In the Fabric - Jason Mraz & James Morisson
- The Letting Go - Melissa Etheridge
- Walking After You - Foo Fighters
- Throw the Roses Away - Hall & Oats
- Menjaga Hati - Yovie & Nuno
- Such Great Heights - Postal Service
- Silver Lining - Rilo Kiley

b - Chasing Pavements - Adele
- Will Try - Amy Anelle
- World Spins Madly On - The Weepies
- This Conversation - The Submarines
- Between the Lines - Sara Bareilles
- Life Is Wonderful - Jason Mraz
- The Quiz - Hello Saferide

c - Yellow - Coldplay
- Time of My Life - David Cook
- You Got Me - Jason Chain
- Lifesize - A Fine Frenzy
- Shh - Donora
- California Dreaming - Mamas and the Papas
- Shut Up and Let Me Go - The Ting Tings

22. Five of your favourite TV shows:
Simpsons, House, I don't watch much TV

23. Five things I treasure in my life:
a - Family, Friendship, Trust, Music, Life
b - Life, Family, Friends, Photography, Love
c - Life, Family, Technology, Music, Light

24. Five "First Time" in my life:
Flying, Cycling into a drain, Falling, Breaking, Leaving

25. Seven words and things I always use:
Words: Oh, Hey, Gah, Hello, So, Wee, Yes
Things: Camera, Computer, Eyes, Ears, Nose, Mouth, Brain (not much, though)

I tag : I don't tag. I like doing tags, but I don't like tagging :)



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