Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Restless Tonight, Cause I Wasted the Light
I drew a really thin line
It’s nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that line
One Thing - Finger Eleven
It rained today, so spoiled my mood to go out and run. Still have yet to run that bloody 3km that Kin Meng challenged me to. Hahaha. Watch out, I'm gonna beat you!
ROFLcopter, LMAOnade.
And a new one that I learnt, from non other than him as well, LOLs Loyce. We're a bunch of retards, nay? Hahaha
Hujan punya hujan, I went into the garden to check things out. Nothing to do la kan. So yeah. Looked up, saw a really weird patch of sky. Words ain't enough to describe it.
Oh, in college these two people were walking around and giving out oranges. I got one, and it became a form of entertainment in Rubin's class, since, frankly, today was a tad too tiresome. Plus I had to deal with a very weak bladder towards the end of class. IDK why, maybe I drank a little too much, but yeah, habis je class..
Look! It's an orange witch! Literally. Haha.
*What boredom and lack of anything intellectually challenging to do does to some people. Cehwahhh.
And tomorrow, another 8 a.m. class. Gah.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Too Many Legs Under the Table, Too Many Reasons For Trouble
Does she get real mean?
Yes she does, yes she does
Let's Make Out - Does It Offend You, Yeah?
On Sunday, I went out with Kin Meng to Taman Tasik Titiwangsa, since I wanted to get out and get shooting. When we got there it started to rain, so we were like, "Oh, damn." But the rain stopped after a while, so we managed to.. well.. get out and get shooting! Sky was pretty surreal that day. Had plenty fun.
And this guy made us laugh quite a bit.
"Keropok Udang.. Kerepek.. Air.."
Then later that night we went to some place in TTDI to lepak, meet up with some sneakerheads, and watch Man Utd beat Tottenham 3 - 1.
Monday, went to College and shot some more scenes to finish the trailer, and boy was I glad when I could wrap it up. Plus, it was such a bleeding hot and humid day.
Going to get a start on them trailer sequences again soon, maybe after lunch.
My ghetto work station. Hahaha. But it works, so yeah.
Oh, and get well, my dear crappy punani.
If I Could Just See You
It's been a while...
Everything would be alright.
If I'd see you,
This darkness will turn to light.
And I will walk on water.
And you will catch me if I fall.
And I will get lost into your eyes.
I know everything will be alright.
I know everything is alright.
Storm - Lifehouse
*Ain't gonna be any pictures in this one*
And oh boy when it did hit me, it hit me. Didn't really help that I was listening to some bad music at the moment. I think I sort of made my mushroom soup extra diluted and salty (No, I didn't sneeze or put mucous in it, thank you very much!).
I was looking for trouble, in a sense. I read the ending again, and I couldn't hep but sit and think. Which is the worst thing for me to do at any given time, since I've been told I sometimes think too much. Bad mind, bad!
In the book, Ivan had to learn to let go, but still remember what he left behind, and at that, at the thought of letting go, I actually went wow. Out loud. A few times. Each time softer than the last, each time, voice cracking a little bit more.
I looked at / thought of the stuff that I went through, the things I have, the things I'm going to have to let go, and I sort of lost it. Thank god there was no one home. Though now that I type this out I bet my oh-so-kepoh sister is going to know.
Granted, I didn't exactly have a nightmare past, far from it. But it's the good things that happened, and the thought that I might not be able to do them again, well.. Almost gone are the days where I couldn't care less about what I did, because I had my parents to decide for me. Gone are the days where I would wake up at 6 in the morning to get ready for school. Gone are the days where I would put on my prefect uniform and go to school as one of the worst prefects of my generation.
Many things are gone, and it's not only the big ones that really matter to me. It's the small ones too. Like, going to school and taking some food from Weny in the morning. Or bringing in fries to class. Or skipping the prefects meeting with Kah Yang and Terence. Or going to physics tuition and laughing about "Right and kay".
Then, when my thoughts turned to the what I have, and what I'm going to have to let go, well, now that one really took the cake. Bought the barn. Scored a goal. Fried the egg. Cracked the knuckle. Spanked the monkey. Then, of course, my iPod decided to let Lifehouse loose.
Yeah, everything would be alright. But then I went a little too far ahead of myself and thought about how long can I do this? Until when? What would happen when.. oh, shit (I sound like some clingy screwed-up bitch, now that I think about it. Damn I hope it's not the case). Even rethinking about this is bad. I know, this is one of the suckiest things to think about, but I guess I have one of the suckiest minds on one of the suckiest heads on earth.
We had a brief chat about this, though I think it was with mutual consent that we didn't pursue it further. Besides, it was and still is too early to think about this. At least, that's what I think. But what do I know, last um.. relationship (if you could call it that) I was in turned out to not exactly be one in the first place. Talk about fucked up, eh?
They say "What Ifs" are one of the most dangerous questions one can ask oneself. I really think this is the case. It is hard to stop the downward spiral when you start with one. What if I... and on and on and on.
Fuck I'm such a pussy. What kind of guy can get all worked up over a girl's book and some music?
Did you know, today is already a month gone by? I don't know if I should make a big deal out of it, since it's only a month, but then again "only" is subjective, isn't it? I guess I wouldn't really consider it to be an "only", but I also guess to someone in a 10 year marriage, they'd consider it an "only".
So yeah, again, shows what I know.
I want you to know you make me sad
I want you to know you make me happy
You were the best thing that I ever had
Want You To Know - Freelance Hellraisers
*I actually typed out something from the book, but I think I'd only put it on after you finish reading it.
**Sorry for the boring post. It does tend to come up once in a while.
Here, so that there's at least one photo in this.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Hours Slide, and Days Go By
And in between it always seems too long
All of a sudden
I don't mind,
I don't care,
As long as you're here.
All the Same - Sick Puppies
It did, up to a certain extent, though the um, ineffectiveness of it was partly down to me. I wanted to really run until my legs fall off, and I thought I could go quite far / long without thoughts buzzing in my head. But I must have chosen the wrong playlist (indeed, I did) and after the third song, things started going a little off. I mean, I continued running, but my head was full of thoughts. But enough of the thoughts. I managed to run them off for a while, so I don't want to dwell on it.
Today I decided to go easy on myself, so I set a target of 5km in maybe, 20 - 25 minutes. Which, I think by my standards would be achievable. So yeah, I did manage the 5km, but with a little slow moment at about 3km - 4km. The last kilometer, I ran again. Just to see if I could get to my targeted time. Well, I almost did.
5 km in 28 minutes. Hmm. I guess it's okay. Though after donkey years of not running, this should be considered pretty good.
Oh there was a girl sitting nicely in the middle of the park that I chose to run at, and I think she saw I was troubled or something (I tried to arrange my face to betray nothing, but I guess it didn't really work), because I noticed her looking at me a lot. And I don't think I'm mistaken, since I was the only other person at the park at that time. Or maybe I was perasan, and she just happened to be looking at my shoes or something. Hmmm. Anyway, I've decided to try make this a "twice-a-week" thing, if possible. 5km per-session. I can do it!
Sometimes I really can't help but wishing I was a turtle.
Monday, January 21, 2008
Larger Than Lifesize, Wondersome
Rose above the maddening crowd
We lit the streets with the sweetest glow
We held the globe and made it turn
Wandered through the universe
The men of science observed through telescopes
All for love, we become
Larger than lifesize, wondersome.
Lifesize - A Fine Frenzy
Stacks - Useful to quickly access stuff in my most used folders.
Spaces - Really damn useful for organizing my work spaces. Gosh, no more cluttered desktops.
I have no idea what this is called, but I love it! It instantly previews the stuff in my folders, in the iTunes album view style. Plus I can quickly preview it in full size without running the app needed. Wheeee!
Oh, I also have a .Mac account now. My dad signed me up for it, since he said it would be extremely useful. So I now get 5gb of online storage space, and also a new email address, which I guess I'd use for um, more serious matters.
It's been an interesting few days, since I last updated. We celebrated Divya's 21st birthday the other night, and it was pretty fun, though there were a couple of incidents that might've marred the event. But not enough to totally spoil the night. Plus, the ending of the night was what I would call enjoyable, to say the least. Moon was pretty full and big that night too.
While we were heading back home, I kept on going "Holy crap" every time I looked at it. There was one time, the clouds were fully covering the moon and I was pretty disappointed, since I didn't get to look at it, again. Then after a while I looked back out the window and the clouds had gone, and the moon was shining bright. When I exclaimed this out loud, Arthur, being the oh-so-smart person that he is, stated, "Oh, that's because the moon ate the clouds."
I burst out laughing. Laughed like a completely crazy idiot, while Mel went WTF repeatedly. I totally didn't expect him to come up with something like that.
Arrived back safe and sound at about four a.m., and went to sleep at about five-ish. I think. Then I was woken up at about nine-ish because I had to go for a function at my grandparents' place. Went there at about eleven-thirty (Yeah, I know, why did I wake up at nine, eh?) and stayed until about six in the evening. Oh gosh was it a tiring day. Both mentally and physically. But it was also pretty interesting, caught up with some cousins and chatted the day away.
That night, the moon was out, and I thought, "Okay, since it's been a while since I shot the moon, might as well do it tonight." So I went out and took a few shots of it, though I still haven't perfected the art of moon-photography. Plus, I need a longer lens to be able to get bawls-dropping photos of the moon. Hahaha.
The Moon!
Then Sunday came and went, celebrated a cousin's 22nd Birthday at San Francisco Steak House (sp?). Pretty good food and stuff. Though my dessert was disappointing. I asked for ice-cream with strawberries around it, but all I got was a measly slice of a strawberry. Gah! But whatever. It was good enough, I suppose.
And today in college, we did a pretty interesting thing. Jason asked us to come up with a short skit of about five minutes, and it was about person A witnessing person B stealing someone's handphone. We had fun coming up with ideas and whatnot, and we also managed to get an eight for a grade, which was good. Then we had a class on how to write a resume. So yeah, college came and went as well.
Rained quite heavily just now. Power went off a few times, so I got to continue reading a book. Then, after the rain stopped, I decided to head out into the garden to see what I can shoot. Kin Meng asked why I haven't updated my blog, and I replied "Nothing interesting to blog about". He asked me to go take some photos, and I replied "Nothing to shoot". So yeah, I decided to give it a go.
Mmmmm, so yeah, that was today.
I actually had a pretty long rant that I typed out before this, though I really had my doubts about publishing it, since it is rather nasty, I guess. Haha. Oh well.
Tomorrow, is going to be an interesting day. And night, if all goes well. :)
Labels: College, Eman, Life, Photography
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Last Christmas, I Gave You My Heart
Today I was mighty impressed by both my lecturers for this term. First of, it was Jason who teaches us Film Studies. His work is very good, and he has done stuff for Discovery and Media Corp (?). And what he showed us in class was pretty much awesome. I think I might just enjoy doing post-production.
And then the second one was Rubin, who teaches us News-Writing for Print. He can be a little dry at times, but I think I will find his lessons interesting from time to time. He managed to make today's topic real interesting, though I think other lecturer's might have made it somewhat drier. So yeah.
Plus, I am sort of looking forward to the assignments this term. Might be challenging, but then again they sound like fun.
Went out into the garden to re-familiarize myself with the camera and the Raynox. Been so long, I think I've sort of lost my touch (Or whatever poor excuse of a touch that I had in the first place). Saw a ladybug, something that I haven't seen in eons (No shit), so of course I had to take some pictures. And only two turned out acceptable. Whoa, one week of not shooting macro stuff and this happens.
And I also tried to do something.. different.
- Removed. I didn't like how it looked -
Haha. Didn't really turn out as I would've liked it. But then again, nowadays, rarely anything I do in photography turns out how I would've wanted / liked it.
Tomorrow is, I think, going to be a pretty long day. Meetings, eatings, and movies.
So. Till then.
Labels: Eman, Life, Photography
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
And You're Rushing Headlong Out of Control
Hoop diddy diddy - Hoop diddy do.
Soon the fire starts a raging gets 'em more than half crazy ,
Hoop diddy diddy - Hoop diddy do.
Headlong - Queen
Was a pretty interesting day in college, watched parts of three movies: Babel, The Kingdom, Dejavu. We had to come up with some sort of analysis of the three movies, writing down what we think the movies portrayed, what they were trying to say, what we think they could've meant, those sort of things. I have yet to distribute the workload though, so yeah. Probably going to do that after this.
Then later we had our first Practical Training / Internship briefing. It was the basic introduction to the thing, so not much happened, a few questions here and there, and the filling-in of a couple of forms. Oh, 8TV already contacted us. Whew that was quick. Hope other things go well as well. There's light at the end of the tunnel, yet!
After that, I was the driver for the day. Hahaha. First time. And I'm thinking I should get my student card loaded with some credit so that I can park in college. Pretty daft of me to not too, nay? So yeah, was headed to Subang to pick up my camera anyway, so I also played taxi-man to a bunch of others (Arthur, Jas, Karen & Mel), dropping them off at their various destinations. We stopped at McD so that I could grab a bite to eat. And we sat at THE place. Where it all began. Oh, I also saw my awek there. Lama tak nampak. Looking good, I must say.
Then I dropped Mel off at her place, and headed over to Saujana Square (?) or something like that. And on the way there was when I realised I really had to pee. I guess I had too much to drink? Haha. So yeah, I was under pressure. Dun-dun-dun-du-du-dun-dun. And when I reached there, there was no toilet zwtf! So after settling everything to do with the camera, I went back, forced to hold it in. And on the way back, I took a wrong turn, and ended up turning back into Subang, so more zwtfness! Plus, it was starting to becoming a little (Understatement!) jammed. Luckily I managed to get out pretty quick, considering the traffic. Reached home at about 6.30-ish, I think, and rushed in to pee (Oh sweet relief).
Then just now, I went out with Kin Meng, since I had my camera back, so we decided to do some light shots, but maybe with a little variation. So yeah, we went to KJ Station to shoot, and then to Pelita to lepak.
Picture time! Wahh it's been a while since I posted anything.. Fresh.. Hahaha
It started off with a little experimenting
Then we got into the groove of things
And then a couple of buses decided to drive past
*Click to see a bigger version for the next two
And I shot him shooting cars shooting down the road
:D
Labels: Camera, Eman, Extreme Happiness, Life, Photography
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Early Sleep, Peeing, and Bubbles.
We're brought back down to solid ground
I wouldn't say I'm mad about the rain
But we'll get through it anyway
We'll get back to the start again
Lifted - Lighthouse Family
Oh I had a pretty weird couple of dreams before sleep eluded me. Haha. So, first, I was a cartoon character in a Simpsons-style cartoon, and I was going round doing random acts of kindness (Yes, wtf?). And for the record, my character's skin colour was not yellow (Neither was it black. Yes this one is aimed at you, Arthur! Beyotch!) It was a lighter shade compared to that dude, Apoo (?). Haha. Yes, another WTF.
Then I was at this Liverpool Vs Man Utd match gathering somewhere at a stadium, and I was sitting pretty close to the emcee. He was badmouthing Man Utd, and I kept on coming up with smart-ass retorts to it that he got kinda pissed. Hahaha. And I just kept it up, pissing him off. (More wtfness)
Then, came the big one. The event that changed the night. I woke up. I realised something. I had to pee. So yeah, "This is normal," I tell myself. Get up, get in, get it out, and get out. After successfully completing that difficult task, I decided to check up on a few things, since I was halfway to being wide awake anyway, and that's when..
I came across this post on a blog (Which I must say has a familiar writing style) which spoke of bubbles. Aha! Yes, the final piece of the puzzle has been found. The binding piece of evidence in this crime of.. erm, literature? Hahaha
So, anyway, that particular post was pretty.. deep (a word which reminds me of something Russel Peters said about a name, but that's another story for another day). Probably the result of all that Milo Ais / Teh O Ais Limau, I'm guessing, though the better-half of my brain doesn't think so.
*Digress! Oh my gawd, I'm using the laptop, and it's currently on my, erm.. lap, amongst other things, and suddenly the CD/DVD drive started whirring. And it vibrates the computer. Oh, my.. Hahahaha. Oh crap it stopped.
Yeah, that post spoke of love, of how somethings don't last, how some people deal with that, how some people need other people to deal with that. One thing that leapt out to me was "What if you fall out of love?" A thought that might be considered jinx-y, taboo, or whatever. But a thought, nonetheless. And personally, I believe it's as easy to fall out of love as it is to fall in love (Though my definition of Love might vary from time to time). Just as it might take just one tiny thing to make you fall in love with someone, it might take one tiny thing to make you fall out of love with that same someone.
Why do all good things come to an end?
So!
Is it inevitable, to fall out of love?
Perhaps.
What can be done about it?
Forget it. If it comes, it comes. (Way easier said than done though. Ah, good going Eman. Right way to make your brain work even more, eh?)
Friday, January 11, 2008
People Gonna Rate You, People Gonna Hate You
People gonna love you.
People gonna do whatever
Makes them feel they own you better.
Strange - The Feeling
My mum told me to clean up my old computer as she wanted to give it away soon (Yeah, I know). So yeah, I had to go through loads of stuff, to sort out what can be saved, what can be thrown. Music, bleh I couldn't care less. Assignments? Bahhh. Photos? Oh, these look interesting.
So yeah, I went through some photos. I think I'd need a lot of time to go through everything. Wonder why I kept a lot of crap. Hahaha. Anyway, I looked through a few folders and saw a few that I liked. So yeah, here are some of them. Just stuff that happened in 2007.
Taken in college sometime ago.
*Eman goes "What in the hell did I just bite?!" whilst Mel grins with obvious, unmistakable evil enjoyment.
Taken at Perhentian when a whole bunch of us went there for a holiday.
Taken at the Bird Park when I went with Kinz and Emily.
Taken at KLCC Park when I went with Kinz and Patrick.
At KLCC, same people.
Taken at Sam's place.
And lastly I really like this shot that I managed to pull off when I was shooting some football action.
There's still a lot more to come. But I'm taking my time to go through the photos, so yeah. It's fun seeing how I've changed in shooting style, and seeing improvements and whatnot.
Oh, I watched Pan's Labyrinth just now, since I've been wanting to watch, and Lisa said we had the DVD for quite some time. So yeah, it was a pretty cool movie. Tense, and graphic (enough to make me wince, at least. But giler babi cool). Hahaha. Pretty fun movie, all in all. Ending was okay as well.
Canon messaged me (Yes, via SMS) about my camera. Apparently it'll cost RM120 to fix that bloody CF-card door. What in the world. It's a tad expensive, isn't it? Bahhhh. August can't come quick enough.
Labels: Eman, Life, Photography
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Blast From the Past
Looked through my old blog, checked out what I jotted down, and I was pretty much amazed that I was like that back then. Most of my writing style has changed, though some parts remain the same. Some posts were pretty much useless, and some were pretty interesting to read again. And the photos I took, some if not a lot were pretty okay, considering I just started my venture into photography.
So yeah, here's a little blast from the past (2007)
Two kids, with two cameras, tripods, on a bridge, at night. My oh my.
And some photos taken with my S3. Kind of miss the little thing.
My Silhouette
Heart
And I used to love cloud so much. Took pictures of clouds with interesting shapes and stuff.
Look, a bird!
And a fish!
Ahh going through the older photos and I can see such a big difference between now and then. Pretty neat. Might want to do a montage of my photography, from when it began to where it is currently.
Oh, and to you, thank you for listening (more like reading, kan?) to what I had to say. And sorry for beating about the bush, going round in circles and whatnot just to get to a point that, I must say, is pretty unrelated to everything, in the end. But it may just be me. So yeah.
Thanks :)
We've all become the same
We dress the same ways
Only our accents change
Have A Nice Day - Stereophonics
Labels: Eman, Life, Photography