Friday, December 26, 2008
It Comes And Goes, And I Have No Control
Some days I wanna, and some days I don't.
Sometimes I can feel it, and suddenly it's gone.
Some days I can tell you the truth, and some days I just don't.
Only a change of mood, sun goes down, someone says something to quick or to soon.
A touch not made, one made to late, armies of words can not hope to contain.
It Comes and It Goes - Dido
Kau boleh acuhkan diriku
Dan anggap ku tak ada
Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku
Kepadamu
Aku Mau - Once
Sometimes I can feel it, and suddenly it's gone.
Some days I can tell you the truth, and some days I just don't.
Only a change of mood, sun goes down, someone says something to quick or to soon.
A touch not made, one made to late, armies of words can not hope to contain.
It Comes and It Goes - Dido
First of, I'm sorry for neglecting this space for quite some time. I've been caught up in work, and to be frank, that's what is mostly on my mind, ever since I started. I've been neglecting more than just this space, I've been neglecting my life, my family, my friends. It's not something that I do purposely, it's just that for now, my priority seems to be getting the job done.
Second, a very happy christmas to those that celebrate it, and to those who don't, well, a happy new year then. This year things were slightly (well, not really slightly, more like extremely actually) different compared to previous years, but it was an experience that I'm sure I'd be glad I had in times to come. And so it is.
I'm now an editor, and I'm editing an episode of OIAM3, so it's been eating into my life ever since I was given the task. Even before that, I was absorbed with the production, going to locations to shoot and help out. This is what has been eating up my time, though I admit I could have made time for my life. But again, it's just that work is on my mind most of the time.
It's a sad thing to need to be told to meet with friends, and unfortunately I've stooped low to that level. I mean, I don't purposely choose not to go out with you guys, it's just that I seem to be unable to put much in front of my work, in terms of priority. I try to make time, and I did, though not as often as you guys would've like. In that sense, I'm very sorry.
I missed a few Christmas gatherings, both by friends from college and also friends from work, all because of the episode. I didn't do it without a heavy heart, but the reluctance to go and not try to complete my edit was there. I don't blame the episode, in fact I don't blame anything, save maybe for myself for getting caught up in work, but then again, from one point of view, that could be seen as passion, in a sense. Production is in my blood.
Second, a very happy christmas to those that celebrate it, and to those who don't, well, a happy new year then. This year things were slightly (well, not really slightly, more like extremely actually) different compared to previous years, but it was an experience that I'm sure I'd be glad I had in times to come. And so it is.
I'm now an editor, and I'm editing an episode of OIAM3, so it's been eating into my life ever since I was given the task. Even before that, I was absorbed with the production, going to locations to shoot and help out. This is what has been eating up my time, though I admit I could have made time for my life. But again, it's just that work is on my mind most of the time.
It's a sad thing to need to be told to meet with friends, and unfortunately I've stooped low to that level. I mean, I don't purposely choose not to go out with you guys, it's just that I seem to be unable to put much in front of my work, in terms of priority. I try to make time, and I did, though not as often as you guys would've like. In that sense, I'm very sorry.
I missed a few Christmas gatherings, both by friends from college and also friends from work, all because of the episode. I didn't do it without a heavy heart, but the reluctance to go and not try to complete my edit was there. I don't blame the episode, in fact I don't blame anything, save maybe for myself for getting caught up in work, but then again, from one point of view, that could be seen as passion, in a sense. Production is in my blood.
Kau boleh acuhkan diriku
Dan anggap ku tak ada
Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku
Kepadamu
Aku Mau - Once
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Here It Goes Again
Coming Out of My Cage
Love is completely wasted by me
but I can't help it
I'm like a broken tap;
I give and give and give and give
but I can't get anything back
People don't keep broken taps,
they fix them or plug them,
seal them shut.
I wish I knew better,
but all I can say is
I'm foolish
and
I suck
*Credits to Lisa for the inspiration
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
Gone Be The Birds When They Don't Want To Sing
You see yourself in the mirror and you
Feel safe coz it looks familiar
But you're afraid to open up your soul coz you
Don't really know, don't really know who is
The person that's deep within
Coz you're content with just being the name brand band
And ya fail to see that its trivial,
Insignificant, you addicted to material.
Gone Going - The Black Eyed Peas
Feel safe coz it looks familiar
But you're afraid to open up your soul coz you
Don't really know, don't really know who is
The person that's deep within
Coz you're content with just being the name brand band
And ya fail to see that its trivial,
Insignificant, you addicted to material.
Gone Going - The Black Eyed Peas
There's a saying that goes: "The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference." I guess there's no greater insult than to be subject to indifference. Certainly none that I know of, anyway.
There's also a saying that goes: "It takes two to tango." In this sense, I might've been dancing alone in the dark all this while, for all I know. The light that was there might've been the glow of hope and imagination, all that was keeping this fantasy, this dream, alive.
But with it being that, a dream, I don't think I'd let the glow extinguish anytime soon. Sure, I'd move along, but hey it will still be there. I'm a sentimental fella in that sense, I hold on to things that I feel are dear to me, even if it's meaningless to others. For what is there to live for when there's no dream, no goal, no nothing to at least try to look forward to, or to hold on to?
Ah, women. They make the highs higher and the lows more frequent.
- Friedrich Nietzsche
Anyway enough of this, I've got some things to do, some things to regret doing, some things to break, and some things to mend. Some life I have, eh? Hahaha
*Ps: kinz, your kiddo photos should be up in the next post. I don't feel like it fits in this one ;)
*Pps: How sucky is this that every other post has something to do with me having trouble in life? I mean, you must be wondering what kind of fucked up life I'm living, no? And to tell you the truth, I have no clue as to where my life is heading. Down the drain, for all I know and care.
Wish I was a turtle. FTW.
There's also a saying that goes: "It takes two to tango." In this sense, I might've been dancing alone in the dark all this while, for all I know. The light that was there might've been the glow of hope and imagination, all that was keeping this fantasy, this dream, alive.
But with it being that, a dream, I don't think I'd let the glow extinguish anytime soon. Sure, I'd move along, but hey it will still be there. I'm a sentimental fella in that sense, I hold on to things that I feel are dear to me, even if it's meaningless to others. For what is there to live for when there's no dream, no goal, no nothing to at least try to look forward to, or to hold on to?
Ah, women. They make the highs higher and the lows more frequent.
- Friedrich Nietzsche
Anyway enough of this, I've got some things to do, some things to regret doing, some things to break, and some things to mend. Some life I have, eh? Hahaha
*Ps: kinz, your kiddo photos should be up in the next post. I don't feel like it fits in this one ;)
*Pps: How sucky is this that every other post has something to do with me having trouble in life? I mean, you must be wondering what kind of fucked up life I'm living, no? And to tell you the truth, I have no clue as to where my life is heading. Down the drain, for all I know and care.
Wish I was a turtle. FTW.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Oh, Really? Well Here's A News Flash For You
Keep the lights on outside my window, comforts trying to sneak in.
In my dream I'm knee deep in corn,
dreaming of falling asleep next to you.
Sunshine and holes in my plan to settle down and marry,
But I guess we're all still young.
But don't you want somebody to hold?
No Surprise - Lightspeed Champion
I generally take insults quite well, but there are limits to kindness, you know. Like Zeb said to me today: "There has to be a day when you just feel like being mean, after being so nice to everyone and everything". I agreed, cause I think we have something very powerful in us in common. We tend to generally be nice to people too much sometimes. I guess we care about not hurting other people's feelings.
I mean, we do say stuff like, "Next time I see the fucker I'm going to shout at him, make him cry, fuck!" and such, but we never actually do it, though Zeb can do it, since he sort of has the authority to do so, especially with a good cause. I'm just some boy, so I usually just keep it in, and not do anything.
But everything has a breaking point. Mine's been poked a little, over the past few days, week or so.
All I can say is:
I may not have nice skin, but unlike you, I don't need it because I do my work well. The only job you'll ever be doing is a fucking blowjob for a donkey when that face of yours fucks off in a few years time.
Wish I said it to your face, dumbfuck. You think I want to be like this?
*Kiedd singing "You Raise Me Up" while waiting for a contestant*
Sunil : That's a gay song la bro.
Kiedd : Really?
*Sunil sings the chorus*
Sunil : See? You raise me up. How can that be not gay?
*Sunil continues singing*
Kiedd : Eh, I nak gi toilet kejap.
Sunil : Hey, bro, it can't be that good
Hahahahahah! If you don't get the humour, then god bless your clean head. Tapi ingat, siakap senohong gelama ikan duri, bercakap bohong lama-lama mencuri.
I don't think I'll write about a lot of stuff. Just needed to express the emotional lyrics at the top, the rant in the middle, and the comedy at the end. So some photos from our location.
Walked a lot in front of the contestants just to spur them on. Hahahah!
Kasut merah
Our quotes of the day table
Deck no. 1 - Master
Deck No. 2 - ISO
And my job for the main judging, amongst other things.
In my dream I'm knee deep in corn,
dreaming of falling asleep next to you.
Sunshine and holes in my plan to settle down and marry,
But I guess we're all still young.
But don't you want somebody to hold?
No Surprise - Lightspeed Champion
I generally take insults quite well, but there are limits to kindness, you know. Like Zeb said to me today: "There has to be a day when you just feel like being mean, after being so nice to everyone and everything". I agreed, cause I think we have something very powerful in us in common. We tend to generally be nice to people too much sometimes. I guess we care about not hurting other people's feelings.
I mean, we do say stuff like, "Next time I see the fucker I'm going to shout at him, make him cry, fuck!" and such, but we never actually do it, though Zeb can do it, since he sort of has the authority to do so, especially with a good cause. I'm just some boy, so I usually just keep it in, and not do anything.
But everything has a breaking point. Mine's been poked a little, over the past few days, week or so.
All I can say is:
I may not have nice skin, but unlike you, I don't need it because I do my work well. The only job you'll ever be doing is a fucking blowjob for a donkey when that face of yours fucks off in a few years time.
Wish I said it to your face, dumbfuck. You think I want to be like this?
The contestants were horrendous
*Kiedd singing "You Raise Me Up" while waiting for a contestant*
Sunil : That's a gay song la bro.
Kiedd : Really?
*Sunil sings the chorus*
Sunil : See? You raise me up. How can that be not gay?
*Sunil continues singing*
Kiedd : Eh, I nak gi toilet kejap.
Sunil : Hey, bro, it can't be that good
Hahahahahah! If you don't get the humour, then god bless your clean head. Tapi ingat, siakap senohong gelama ikan duri, bercakap bohong lama-lama mencuri.
I don't think I'll write about a lot of stuff. Just needed to express the emotional lyrics at the top, the rant in the middle, and the comedy at the end. So some photos from our location.
Walked a lot in front of the contestants just to spur them on. Hahahah!
Kasut merah
Our quotes of the day table
Deck no. 1 - Master
Deck No. 2 - ISO
And my job for the main judging, amongst other things.
So that's a wrap for a while. Still have a nice session of work to look forward to. Sayang sekarang ni sedikit emo. Aih.
